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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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Tuesday, June 29, 2010
It really hurt a lot when someone we love lied to us and also didn't tell us the truth what he's doing. He told me he was sleeping in the first place when i text him and he didn't even reply and it was okay to me. And i thought i could trust him. And secondly, i find out he was surfing the net when he told me he wanted to go to sleep. And find out something fishy. I really hate to find out something by myself. I prefer someone telling me the truth rather than i find the truth all by myself. I don't understand why must he to lied to me when actually he know i won't be mad if he's telling me the truth. I can't even count how many times have he lied to me and also saying sorry. But it's okay if he would want to continue being like this. I couldn't be bother anymore. Why should i care if he is not. I still have a long journey to go. If he want to leave, then leave. It's better for me because he won't be able to hurt me much more. I'm not saying that he's not a good boyfriend. But he have an attitude to change that he's been telling me that he wanted to be a better person. But where does all those words go?? Action speaks louder than words hunn. Tuesday, June 22, 2010
 I want this please!! I miss this guy.I'm totally bored at home again. No accompany for this time round because boyfriend is working. Apparently alone and feeling dead. Yesterday i told my mum i wanted to get Blackberry phone pink in colour and i was glad she told me unless i pass my N-Level then she'll get me the Blackberry phone. I swear i'm craving for that Blackberry. I'm wishing that i could pass my N-Level. Seriously i'm bored and i don't understand why i'm updating my blog everyday. Okay precisely because i'm alone at home and i can't keep my eyes off on my computer. Now i'm missing my Satrio mates badly. My Satrio mate update me that 11July they'll performing at Geylang. Not so sure about the place. But too bad i'm out Satrio already. I probably miss those tarian and playing gamilan. Monday, June 21, 2010
   I ♥ Hayley Williams.I'm bored and i'm stuck at home alone. Not going anywhere. But planning to finish up my homework, probably. Boyfriend is busy with work. Pity him. Currently, i didn't update anything about my outing with girlfriends and schoolmates. I really used up my money last week. Firstly on our treat to Seoul Garden with girlfriends. Secondly to Sentosa with schoolmates. Unfortunately i was the only girl. But it's okay with me because i know all of them since i was Sec one. Mostly i spend my time with boyfriend as the others was watching movie on Sakti laptop. We overnight until the next day but i felt asleep. And in the morning boyfriend and rudy told me i was snoring while i was sleeping but my mouth was close. I swear i was ashamed of myself. Now i'm thinking what should i buy for boyfriend for his birthday even though there's another 5 months to go. But still i have to save up my money. I plan to buy that Vans shoe or the G-Shock watch. But if boyfriend saw those picture above, haha. Apparently he'll be mad because he don't like anything that got to do with "MONKEYS"! But its cute right. Sunday, June 20, 2010
 My tongue got burnt because of boyfriend silly mistake. I didn't wish to continue quarreling with him but we chose to. I thought i could spend a little happy times with him before he start to be busy with work starting tomorrow. But unfortunately it never happen. We both walk away without any hug and kisses like we used to. For now i didn't get any message from him and i think he's waiting for me to text him first but i don't wish to. Like always, sorry is never a last word to say in a relationship. I don't wish to stop thinking about my boyfriend. Even though he make mistake and sometimes hurt me, but he's always there when i need him. He's the sweetest guy that i always wanted. I didn't wish our relationship to end so quickly. Four month had past being with him isn't enough showing how much i really love him. You've never had tried to let me go even for once, but i'm sorry i did tried to do it twice. I'll try my best not to say that phrase ever again. But i'll use it until it's the right time. And sorry because it's hard for me to forgive you. You probably know how much i love you. Saturday, June 19, 2010
 Yes, Step Up 3D is coming soon. I really want to catch that movie. I'm sure it will be great. N-level is just around the corner and great movies is coming out. Okay now, i don't know what else do you expect me to do. I'm really sick and tired. I'm trying to rest at home and in the end got pissed off after getting blame and got few words that i can't accept. For goodness sack, i know i'm freaking only 16 years but please i got feelings too. Do you think all this while i'm doing it on purpose just because to me it's a small matter. I know you want your things back and don't worry my things is also with you. Don't waste your energy typing messages to me. Because when people get mad and pissed off and trying to cool down by their own. They won't read those messages even you're trying to say good things or bad things about you...... It's because of some reasons that i can't said. I think i shall keep it to myself. You know what, all this while when sometimes you're trying to make me mad even it's not on purpose i felt like crying because all this while i'm keeping those hurtful feelings all by myself. I don't know why when something that got to do with me you will tend to get really mad. But look, all i can do is just ignore because i don't like to quarrel. Even you don't like to be scold and quarrel right?? And sometimes what you do is ignore isn't it?? All i can say is thanks. And sorry too, i got feelings to let it out. Tuesday, June 15, 2010
 I was suppose to be strong to face the fact. I can't fix anything yet if you are being ridiculous. You just don't deserve my love if you ain't there to support. Now your words can bring me down but i don't care. Yes you gave me infinity but not enough. I was suppose to be a joyful girl like i used to. Well, relationship sucks a lot. I know there's up and down in every of our relationship. But you've never make me joyful like how i like it to be. Why do you always have to wait for me to make the first move to ask you if we're meeting up? And why do you want to meet me up when i was having no mood at all. Someone please tell me if my boyfriend did any mistakes behind me. So i could really let him go because he really don't deserve my love. I'm sick and tired. Yes i know you told me this was your first time being in a long term relationship. But it doesn't mean that you can adapt yourself for too l0ng till i have to suffer. What a jerk. And please i don't want to hesitate about how will you feel after reading any of my post. I won't even post like this if you're being ridiculous. Sorry, i'm not kind :)) |
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But baby, where they knock you down and out
Is where you ought a stay |
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